because I like Wordpress better

As much as I've enjoyed posting here on Blogger, I have to admit that I really like Wordpress better for various reasons.

Here's my new blog--

http://christinajina.wordpress.com/

I'll add a code to automatically redirect traffic to my new blog soon. For now, I'll just leave it up to you to click over. =]

because it says in Hebrews 2--

¹Therefore we must pay much closer attention to what we have heard, lest we drift away from it. ²For since the message declared by angels proved to be reliable, and every transgression or disobedience received a just retribution, ³ how shall we escape if we neglect such a great salvation?

and

¹⁷Therefore he had to be made like his brothers in every respect, so that he might become a merciful and faithful high priest in the service of God, to make propitiation for the sins of the people. ¹⁸For because he himself has suffered when tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted.

PTL. I woke up to my alarm at 6am this morning, albeit very confused at being awoken after having not slept...or so it felt.

=]

because I'm a little worried

I've been hearing ringing in my ears often as of late...

I got in bed at 10pm, fell asleep for a bit, woke up at 11pm, and now am having trouble falling back asleep. The ringing in my ears was driving me nuts, and my ears seem to be a tad sensitive...

It's all very reminiscent of the beginnings of the storm that rocked me 3-4 months ago.

Pray for me, please.

because I am a proud mocker

to be mocked. And because I'm just another person, but I certainly don't act like it.

Yes, I am indeed a creation of God, and yes, there isn't another Christina Jina Lee out there quite like me. Yes, I am one of a kind, and yes, I have the potential to be somewhat influential in the lives of those around me.

But...

No, I am not any better than the people I surround myself with, and no, that doesn't necessarily make me worse than those people. No, it's not true that I am irreplaceable, and no, nobody really needs me.

I s'pose it all boils down to something I lack and too often forget to strive for--humility. Sometimes I feel like all of our sin issues can simply be attributed back to pride and being self centered.

My dad is a prime example of one who is extremely humble. At first glance it may appear that he's a pushover, that he's soft spoken and that he's naive and too trusting. But in reality, behind that veneer of apparent weakness is a solid character built upon a foundation of all that goodness listed in Galatians 5:22-23. He is loving, joyful, patient, kind, and faithful. He exudes peace and also acts as a peacemaker, and makes sure to be self-controlled in the way he goes about dealing with conflicts and emotions. He is gentle but confident, knowing that he doesn't have to fight to prove himself or his opinions at every challenge.

I, on the other hand...

...let's just say that I lack. Period.

I've commented in the past that so-and-so needs to toppled off his/her pedestal, implying that whoever it was needed to be humbled and to acknowledge the fact that (s)he really isn't as great as (s)he believes him/herself to be. And yet...

...here I am, standing atop my pedestal, head held high by a false sense of self-confidence and back straightened by self-centered pride.

I think it's about time someone knocked me down and gave me a reality check.

So what now? Now that I know I've been pushed to the ground, do I scramble back up to reach that pedestal again? Do I dust myself off and pretend like nothing's happened, assuming that same haughty posture once again? Do I wallow in self-pity for a couple of days, then let myself be satisfied that I've at least identified this problem?

It's one thing to realize my flaws...

...it's another to do something about it.

I can't really say that I can identify any simple solutions to this issue. It's really a matter of having an extreme attitude makeover--and any kind of extreme makeover is always tough and trying.

Like clay in the hands of a potter, so I am in the hands of God.

Cast me not away from Thy presence, oh Lord

Take not Thy Holy Spirit from me

Restore unto me the joy of Thy salvation

And renew a right spirit within me

because i keep oversleeping

augh...

I woke up today at 8:40am. Yesterday I woke up at 8:40am. Monday and Tuesday? I'm not sure when, but definitely not 6:00am.

...

Friends, I've been trying to wake up by 6:00am so I could start off my day with Pastor Aaron, Sharon Lee, and whoever else might be at Starbucks for "Don't Waste Your Summer" at 7:00am.

-_-;;

But you know, as much as I've failed to attend this past week, it's still a huge improvement from what my sleeping schedule used to be like. I went from sleeping anywhere between 2am and 5am and waking up between 10am to 12:30pm to sleeping before 1am and waking up before 9am...not bad!

Anyway, that's all I wanted to post for now. I realize it's been a while since I've posted anything substantial, but that will come sooner or later......

=]

because i consistently fail to

seek and find that ever elusive happy medium.

I don't know how many sentences I just typed out and backspaced, typed and backspaced, typed and backspaced...

Where do I even begin?

The way my life should be is defined by many sets of happy mediums...and I have found none of them as of now.

For now, the most pertinent happy medium is that I need to calm down and take more time to rest and (spiritually & physically) recuperate, but I need to make sure not to hole up and shut the world out either.

That is all.

because it's VBS season

A brother wrote an entry on what constitutes a successful VBS and I thought I'd share it with you.

Hope he doesn't mind. =]